mASF post by "svrfu"
posted on: mASF forum: Advanced Discussion, March 3, 2005Holy shit dude... I´m seeing myself in your words.
My LTR have always been alot dedicated to me. I decided to end the
Relationship cause i was living too much in function of her... Not having
freedom at all. I´d be upset if she had contact with other guys. I was very
jealous of her. But the real-hate-shun-ship was sooooo boring. it´s really
weird but i think i function just as you when needing to have a challenge to
become excited. I recently got an ONS... andd it was so easy i got floppy.
By the time i was masturbating alot so i thought that could be the problem.
Now i´m practicing Tantra ( retaining orgasms) and i´m on a mission of only
jerking off again after 25 approaches. The problem is that my sexual
thoughts are alot linked to my ex yet. well, gotta FTOW, i´m aware of that.
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> -[ I warn you this article is probably NOT of any value for anyone out
here and
> thus you shouldn't read it unless you're so bored that you just feel like
> reading my sick story. ]-
>
>
> Dear mASF community and everyone else interested,
>
> a dear friend once pointed me to this site when I told him about my
frustrated
> 2 year LTR that was slowly but surely breaking apart.
>
> Allow me to shortly tell you my about my past and what made me what I am
now:
>
> My girlfriend meant everything for me. (I know RTFM - kick me if you can).
I
> was totally supplicating to my girfriend, hoping not to lose her. Feeling
like
> I had to keep her at it. Guess what, at that time we haven't had sex for
almost
> 3 weeks. Her rejecting me all the time humiliated me and meant bad
whippings
> for my self-confidence. Additionally I was really she was cheating on me
with
> her EX. She's already done twice. I broke up. After a month or something,
she
> came back regretting what she did and promising never to do such bitter
> business again. I rejected her for for the time being but always took her
back
> later. She indeed had some qualities, at least that's what I was thinking.
She
> was the best girl I ever had sex with, indeed she was my first time. She
was a
> crazy girl. We made IT just about anywhere. Park, Garden, forest, car,
changing
> cubicle, jacuzzi...[your favourite place her]...[insert anything]... That
was
> just amazing for me. She is that innocent type, you never would put
anything
> past to her, however she is absolutely cunning and pseudo.
>
> I realized that a change would have to be made if I wanted to conserve at
least
> a bit of my self-respect. Willing to clutch at straws I read almost any
snippet
> about seduction and didn't fail to test my undreamed-of skills.
> It was the first night out with a friend (serving as my wing ;)) when
success
> overwhelmed me. I ended up fucking a virgin HBasia6. Damn...what an
amazing
> feeling. Just on the FIRST night! It was the first time I felt like
actively
> laying a girl and not getting laid. A "n00b's luck" might be what you're
> thinking now. At least it's what I was thinking.
>
> Still having that unique James Bond feeling I was ungently being torn from
my
> trip when my girlfriend told me she would return to her EX. Instead of
facing
> it unconcerned and admitting to myself that my LTR and me had no future, I
was
> mentally devasted and broke out in tears. I haven't cried since I was a
child.
> I begged her not leave. I wanted her to stay. I told her how much I loved
her.
> For most of you this might seem totally weird but I really felt that way.
>
> To describe it using LoverBoys words:
> "Without her hand holding...
> ...my dick I thought I couldn't survive."
>
> It was just about that time that Loverboy's posted infamous
> "Tribute-To-Sarging-Video" to this board. I found myself in his story
(well, at
> least the first part). My latter part of my story had yet to be written.
And so
> it was. Gaining new energy and faith from his video and success story I
decided
> to continue my enlighting path to PUAdom.
>
> So what's the best way to cure one-itis-again?
>
> A: Beer B: Chain saw
> C: FTOW D: A lot of Beer
>
> Correct! In first place thought a combination of A, B and D was helpful,
> however continuing my SS studies FTOW turned out to be the remedy
prescribed
> mostly.
>
> No sooner said than done. I know it's not meant literally. It's meant more
> like...uhmmm..blabla?
>
> I'm counting HBasia6 as my first success. So 9 more to go. (FNOW)
>
> Next party, next success HBbigb00bs7.5. Amazing!!! I take her home. We're
> crossing the borders of simply making out. She gives me head. Lies in
front of
> me spreading her legs, offering her wet pussy. (unconsciously using
stylistic
> technique of asyndetic tricolon to emphasize the rapid progress of action)
> Damn... I'm not used to this. Most times I kinda had to persuade my LTR to
do
> let me enter her pussy. And now there's this amazing girl lying on my bed,
> urging me to fuck her. Guess what... I go and spoil the non existent vibe
by
> going floppy. It seems like as soon a girl is no challenge anymore she
loses
> ALL attraction to me. Even to that extent as described above.
> Keeping in mind the unfaithful concept of FNOW I fucked her the morning
after.
> Yehhaa!
> I wasn't enjoying it at all. :(
> I NEVER would have thought I could say something like that. But I really
wasn't
> enjoying fucking her. For those who might think the reason might be my
age.
> Guess. I'm 22.
>
> Carry On! (FEOW)
>
> (2 girls a week, seems like pretty much n00bs luck.)
>
> What follows are 2 weeks without a LR/ONS and just some kiss + #closes.
One of
> the girl is HBlatina8+. I'm really into her and expecting my ultimate
cure. I
> lay her and it's just wonderful. She 4 years older than me. A friend who
knows
> about this adores me being the greatest pimp ever. I'm feeling like
nothing can
> harm me and just being supreme to everything. Oh I'm afraid my despription
and
> words just cannot keep up with what I really felt. It's like the sun was
> shining out of my ass and I'm filled with pure confidence.
>
> FTOW finally seemed to work! I want to thank anyone who has ever
contributed to
> ASF and help building this treasure of seduction knowledge.
>
>
> It was that time when my EX wanted to come back to me. Imagine that LB,
what
> would you have done?! (I'm really interested in your opinion.) Mhh.. what
I
> did was the following:
>
> I told her I wouldn't talk to her unless she came naked and brought beer.
She
> refused but later did as I said. How sick is that? It's just 2 1/2 months
ago
> that I totally supplicated to her and now this. She told me sick shit
(still
> being totally undressed) like what was my opinion on why "it didn't work
with
> us?" and what "were the reasons our relationship broke up?". She was
crying.I
> fucked her brains out that night, she told me it was her most incredible
and
> best time ever.
>
> Foolishly thinking I could resist her subtile cunning attempts to re-turn
me
> into an AFC I took her as my FB. Soon I quitted contact with all of my
other
> HBs. She asked me if the stories the heard about me being a real pua
fucking
> plenty HBs were true. I negated in order not to hurt her. With hindsight I
> guess I shouldn't have. I was getting more and more AFC. I want to spare
the
> rest of the story. Looking at me now I'm totally down again. She went back
to
> her EX AGAIN!! Oh damn... what was that? Short trip to Alice's wonderland.
> It really hurts, it's like at the moment I forgot about all of my past
success
> and just think of her. How is that possible am I such a retarded prick? I
mean
> I'm noticing my mistakes, yet I cannot undo them! I'm feeling like I want
to
> turn back the hands of time and start over at the beginning not making any
> mistake. On the other hand it might be I'm only suffering from not being
> sufficient for her and being rejected by her.
>
> I tried to continue my pua campaign. I do get woman to come home with me,
> however I do NOT get any arousal from ANY girl I seduce. It was only just
> yesterday when I spent a night with a real gorgeous (big breasted yet thin
> chick I have been trying to seduce for weeks). However it turned out she
wasn't
> as shy as I thought she was. She told me she'd try to rape me if I didn't
want
> to sleep with her that night. I told her before I'd never sleep with
chicks on
> the first night (what a lie!!) It's like already stated above, for me most
> girls lose attraction as soon as I win the game by making them want to
have sex
> with me. It's really ironical but it seems like this is a self-evolving
> process. The more I unintentionally refuse having sex with woman, the more
they
> become attracted. It's not like I'm impotent or something it's more
psychic -
> I just completely lose interest. And nothing will work. It's like I'm a
schizo
> PUA/AFC (cognitive dissonance). On the one hand I believe I can seduce
almost
> any woman, but on the other hand there's this blatant realization that I
have
> failed with the girl I wanted to seduce most (EX LTR). Hopefully time
cures,
> coz a second time FTOW won't do.
>
>
> Any suggestions?
>
> Flamers welcome, anything more constructive appreciated.
>
> Carry On!
>
>
> -[GuessWhosBack aka Pacer]-
>
>
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