mASF post by "Bilogomja"
posted on: mASF forum: Field Reports Discussion, August 8, 2005well i started trying to pu chicks again. I work at a resturant so I figure
why not try to pick up some women while working. Unfortunately I was self
concious from the beginning of the day. I kept thinking to my self "stay
positive, believe in yourself, I can do it, Im the best" but it only
slightly/momentarily raised my self esteem.
HB1=8
this chick has been coming in for a few weeks (comes in every tuesday). I
started talking to by asking if she needed anything or if she was finding
everything all right. We progressed to talking about her name, job, new car,
etc.
She seemed to be into me because whenever i talk to her she makes direct eye
contact, is always smiling, is giggly, etc. so today i decided to ask for her
#. but since i was all self concious i kept thinking conflicted things like
"what if she doesnt really want me, what will i say, i want her, she wants me,
she wants me to fuck her, gosh your a pussy you loser":
Me:hey, how've you been?
hb:hey, not to much just work, work, work
me:oh
(i start losing myself and i can feel it, im thinking shit like say something,
fuck fuck fuck, the ships sinking captain)
hb:yea
me:yea... so have you gone on any vacations?
hb:no just work
me:that sucks
hb:but I might get a job at (I forget)
me:so your quiting victorias secret?
hb:maybe I get paid $2 more at (the other place), but I might just work less (@
victorias)
me: so hows your new car doing?
hb:good
me:did you get any tickets?
hb:(laughing) no (goes into some story about speeding and why she cant get
anymore)
me: well i guess that would be the best choice... hey wanna go out some time
hb:umm... I already got a boyfriend
me: oh... (I get anxious) well I mean we can just hang out
hb: umm... ill think about it
me: all right
shes smiling and walks away. I dont see her for the rest of the day. I feel
sort of like a loser, 1/3 of me is saying oh well, the 2/3 is saying you idiot
you fucked up! I think well it could have been worse at least i tried
HB2=9
This chicks a hot co-worker who has a boyfriend. as shes bring back her cart
filled with plates from the dining room to the dishing room, she looks pissed:
Me:whats with these faces your making
(I make a funny face, she doesnt laugh)
Me: it looks like your constipated or something
HB: these fucking people wont get out of my fucking way while im moving my
fucking cart (keeps complaining)
me:oh well that sucks
she walks off. Later:
HB:I should get a fucking sticker on this fucking cart that says get the fuck
out of my fucking way so these people will move it, like seriously everyone
gets up (keeps complaining)
Me:well it happens (for lack of any words)
that was pretty much it with that chick
HB-3=7.7
I use to go to school with this chick (but I didnt realize she was who she was
until I talked to her)
Me: need help finding anything?
HB:(smiling) no thanks
Me: ok, hey do I know you
HB: yea, I think we had english together
Me: thats crazy, are you HB-3
HB: yea
Me: hey what have you been up to I havent seen you in like 2 years
HB: not too much
Me: going to college?
HB:yea @ so and so
ME:what are you studying?
HB: (laughs) nothing
ME: well at least your doing something
HB: (laughs) yea
we walk away and I see her 2 more times we just smile at eachother. I get
super fucking tempted to ask for her # so we can catch up on old times
(ironically I never talked to anyone during high school), but I lose my nerve
to even talk to her again.
End of talking to HB
well by that point of the day Im pretty much feeling like a loser because I
havent gotten anywhere (I didnt get any numbers = girls are not attracted to
me), lost my nerve too many times, too many conflicting thoughts going on even
though Im trying to stay positive, and to top it off this girl Im sort of
attracted to asks where my brother is and what hes been up too. Its like I
wanna learn how to seduce women but I'm constantly holding myself back even
though I wanna go forward (shit the one time I did have sex (with some girl I
went to high school with and was obviously into me) I stuck my dick in her and
while we were doing it it must have slipped out three times and I quit and said
fuck this (even though deep inside I was self concisous that it might slip out
again) and we passed out (it was like 3 am):so I was like fucking the chick for
a whole probably 45 secs and quit even though I was enjoying myself, but I was
afraid of what she'd think of me, fuckin a!!!!!)
Yea all i can say is FUCKIN A right now!!! excuse me while I smash my head on
my desk.
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